The Burning Flame

I am a flame like no other flame.
I am the first to be lit and the last to die out. I rise above them all, red and hot. You can see the tips of me in the darkness of the night. My igniter is in awe of me. My opponents fear me. They all are. Even my fellow flames cower in my presence. Their heat is cool in comparison to my ravaging burn. I leave scars on whoever touches me. My curves and waves mesmerises all that lay their eyes on me. I disappear when i want. When there is no longer anyone around to admire me. Enchanting and charming, thats me. Rather that was me.....

Until that fatal day. I didn't even see it coming. Who would dare to burn me out in the prime of my time. But indeed somebody did dare. All i saw was a black mass above me. Despite the slight uncomfortable feeling, i did not feel threatened. So what i've burned through the night, so what if it became dark earlier than usual...
But it was now looming. My fellow admirers seemed to be welcoming this unexpected visitor. They jumped around me, almost mocking me. I soared higher just to assert my authority, but it did not have its usual effect. Instead they changed their colour and intensified their heat. Now this angered me. I was so overcome with wrath that i didn't notice the first fat wet drop. Even the second. But i was forced to feel the third. It hissed at me. It teased me above my head. It then dropped on me like a ton of bricks. And it kept on coming for me. Drops upon drops. Torrents and torrents. I heard cries, i dont know if they were mine, but they were too gleeful to be my own roar. I saw them before i burned my last. I saw the thunder before all lights went out. In that last moment i wished i wasn't the fastest, hottest and highest burning flame, for then my fate may have been different.......

My legend burned out long before the candle ever did.

Hocus Pocus

Strange thing (well not so strange), happened today in one of my classes. A proof of what Shaykh Yasir Qadhi mentioned in the Lord of the Worlds, Al Kauthar course (for thsoe who didnt go, sorry we'll probably go on about it for a while). Basically after my class, one of the kids, was leaning on their floor brush. I didn't really take notice. Then she says ' wish i can have more potions, ive already got some but i need more so i can make harder spells. Ive got a broom which i can fly away with. If i get more potions i can do more things.My dad said i can have some sticks from outside.....'
Well you can imagine i was gobsmacked! The shaykh had spoken about an incident he had experienced with some young girl, who had downloaded spells and was perfoming acts of 'magic' without realising the severity or consequences! SubhanAllah. It just reminded me of this story and kinda freaked me out. I said to her its not good to make potions, you dont need it you can play with other things. I honestly did not know what to say. I just had an image of her with balls of light flying around her and a pointed hat. Astaghfirullah. I hate Harry Potter even more now! I never could stand it, only because everyone else loves it and i could never see the attraction in it. I dont like fantasy stuff anyway. But the effects its having on our kids is detrimental. They actually believe he possess power. Hmm must do another lesson on Tawheed with them............

Mums the word!

My mum said the word 'JazakAllah' today! masha'Allah its the first time ive ever heard her say it. Was really sweet. I do love my mum. May Allah give me the ability to lower to my parents the wings of humilty and grant them mercy as they did bring me up when i was young. Ameen. But i feel too ashamed sometimes. Which makes me distance myself more. they make it so easy to blame them for things. Parents have this amazing ability to take on anything and to give their children everything and although sometimes they say what have you ever done for us....(at which point we switch off or start counting acts of goodness we think we've done). but they never mean it, they really dont expect us to give them anything, they just expect us to understand when we get kids of our own..........and apparently we do...........
No matter what, i am blessed. because Alhamdulillah, i have such great parents and sisters and a brother. and nieces and nephews and friends and............i could go on can't i?
Indeed which of Allahs favours can we deny...............

And Allah says
'...and if you try to count the blessings of Allah, never will you be able to count them...'
Surah Ibrahim.

A Few Words..........

I didn't want the blog to remain unposted even for a day! I feel i got to make up for lost time..... But before i write a half decent post i just thought i'd post a few sentences i put together once. Im not this deep or some may say airy fairy type (for those who cant understand what the lines are getting at). But rather some realisations i have come to and hopefully can live to, bi tawfiq'Allah.

Anyway here goes.........
Bismillah

Don’t depend on someone who loves you.
Depend on the One who granted you that love.


Treat people as trusts from Allah.
But only put your complete trust in Allah.


Don’t love someone because they love you.
Love that someone because they love Allah.


How I wish I could fly. I would fly away from everyone.
So they can’t hurt me and I can’t hurt them.
But Alhamdulillah Allah did not want me to be a bird flying
in the sky. He, Subhana wa ta’ala wanted me to be a believer
amongst the people, so that I can experience His Rahma and ni’mah
through them. Insha’Allah, one day I return to Allah as Green Birds flying
around the Arsh.


Give to people, but don’t expect anything back.


Happiness is not satisfaction of the heart.
It is the peace of the mind and contentment of the soul.


Pain is very good for the soul.
If the heart is strong it can bear the pain.
But if the heart is weak, then it can be destroyed.
We don’t know the strength of our heart until the
Very end. And Allah, Exalted, the Controller of our
Hearts knows best our end.


You know what love is when you and your loved one
Want to meet again in Jannah.


Anyone who hates shaytan, hates to let him win.


The heart is to…..
To love and to receive love
Have courage, for protection and integrity
To have mercy, to forgive and forgoe
Pump blood in order to survive.


Come and share this great feeling with me.
You’ll find it when your forehead touches the
Ground in prostration to your Lord.
You’ll find it mesmerising in the recitation
of the beautiful Qur’an.
You’ll find it in your baby’s eyes, staring at you
so wide.
You’ll find it in your lover’s laugh after a hard and
Troubled day.
You’ll find it in the history books of the pious,
Those who died before you and I.
You’ll find it in your heart the place in which
it resides.

I was locked out!!

Meaning, i didn't have access to my blog for sometime. Technical problems, personal problems, domestic problems, heck might as well just throw in mental problems!!
Even now, my comp might just shut down on me.........quick few words before it does!!

Oh ok how convenient i have access just after i have returned from an Al Kauthar course, so i can rave on about it......but i wont! ok i will a bit. Masha'Allah what a good course it was. Well the topic was Tawheed and shirk, so it was exactly that, explaining the fundamentals of our Deen. Masha'Allah Shaykh Yasir Qadhi is very articulate and concise in what he says. Really drills the message home, hopefully we wont have as many people labelling, accusing, takfeering, thats if the message of the course is spread far and wide.......insha'Allah. Also on a personale level, it will help us worship Allah properly and recognise His greatness through His Oneness as whoelse is there who created us and who else will ressurect us? So we turn to Him in gratitude and humilty. May Allah give us the tawfiwue to worship him correctly and to keep us sincere to Him. Ameen.

Oh my goodness, i have a new found love.......its Birmingham!! i really really like it there. Ok so Aston Uni wasn't all that, but i was impressed with the whole atmosphere. Maybe we caught them on a good weekend. And oh i did love listening to them speak, masha'Allah! not mocking them or anything, but genuinely did.

Ok inevitably, in a class discussing shirk the topic of Jinns/Blackmagic is going to come up......so anyone for any jinn stories since its the most talked about topic (after marriage i believe).....seriously though not a topic to joke about as it does affect many and we dont realise the extent of damage done. With all these hocus pocus films flying around we have our younger brothers and sister who actually experiment with magic without realising the severity of it. and this is true! Anyway, if you have any jinn stories, please don't hestiate to relate it here.......those who have natural fear of jinns dont read on. Those who dont get easily spooked share it with us.....