Sunday, April 22, 2007

Patience......

Realities of the Heart - part 1

Patience........
Just one more day. Come on its not that bad. Think of it, you might not have to endure it tomorrow, i mean you could be dead. Imagine you die with the virtue of patience, the angels will be calling you 'salaamun alaikum' What can you do anyway. Nothing. See you have to wait anyway. So while you are waiting, reflect upon yourself. and remember for next time. and repent. See theres alot to do while you're waiting. Its the perfect opportunity to bring yourself closer to Allah, subhana wa ta'ala. astaghfirullah, subhanAllah, Alhamdulillah, Wallahu Akbar. Hasbinullah wa ni'mal wakil. inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi raji'un............

Cry if you want, nobody is going to stop you, in fact get it out, but make the tears only for Allah. Don't even bother complaining to others, nobody can truly understand. Only Allah knows and you know how hard it is. Bless everyone they're trying to help and Alhamdulillah be grateful for it, smile and tell them you're ok and that you're glad they're here for you, and they are here for you because they care. Brave it. But you know when the door is closed, get your prayer mat out and sob your heart out to the controller of Hearts. It keeps you sane. Don't block the pain, it will only build up, Allah, Ar Rahman has given us grieviance time, He knows His creation. Use it. But channel it, nurture it, reflect upon it. Its a time to humble oneself and honour yourself. Rejoice, Allah loves you! and He is with you as the patient one.

Wakey, wakey, yep its Tahajud time already......you made it through the day, Alhamdulillah! see, you did it. Now you ready to face the night, when nobody else but your Lord can see you....pray you make it throught the next day.......with patience. '..........

'So leave worrying as much as possible. As carrying the burdens of anxiety is madness. There is your Lord who provided you with solutions to yesterday. And He will similarly provide for what is to come tomorrow.'
Arab Poet

And wait to see what Allah and His Messenger (salallahu alayhi wa sallam) say about it. Oh we're going to wish we were patient...........

Realities of the Heart

Realities of the Heart, is going to be kinda like a series of writings with......yes matters to do with that organ that pumps blood round our body. So yes its going to be be very factual and biological. So do sit with a medical book in your hand cos it may get very technical at times. Alternativley if it gets too difficult, have a Qur'an nearby, insha'Allah the references should be in there aswell...............
Well im no heart surgeon. All though you know i could easily be, i mean i did Science G.C.S.Es and 3 of my sisters did Biology A'Level so i could definetly got in there with the knowledge. but i decided to be nursery nurse instead, i found it more intellectually more stimulating. Come on a 3 year old can't make you look dumb right? Right.............
Anyway, im going to make an attempt to dissect the heart. Please if you're sqeamish, this is especially for you.............

Subtitled 'verily in the rememerance of Allah do hearts find rest...........'

Saturday, April 21, 2007

My Missing Part.......

Once upon a time this was me......i wrote this. probably around this time last year.
I miss me, or rather this part of me. I don't have her any more. Take what you want from it. maybe someone can benefit from it more than i have. but it has to be sincere from the depths.........how far did i go, i'll let you know when i reach the end.
I guess my conviction was just not strong enough. Insha'Allah, there is still time and all is not loss..........


Ya muqalib al quloob thaabit quloobana a'la deenik.

Bismillahir-Rahmanir-Raheem

For the sake of Allah(subhana wa ta'ala)

My Lament
This is a path which has been tread by many of us before, many have succeeded, some probably have failed and some are still struggling on that path. I have attempted to take this path before, but I have not wholly committed to it. This is for you Allah, to seek the pleasure of your Grand Face. The place where I can be sure of your pleasure, in where, I hope will be my final Home of Jannah. But only with Your Help O Allah. You are my Maula, My Protector and my only means to salvation. With your Help O Allah I wish to tread this path. I wish to tread it following the steps of our beloved prophet(salallahu alayhi wa sallam). I wish to be in the ranks of Abu Bakr As-Sideeq(Radi Allahu anhu). I wish to be as strong as Umar (Radi Allahu anhu). I wish for the humble life of Uthman (Radi Allahu anhu). I wish for the hikmah and insight of Ali (Radi Allahu anhu). And many more qualities which are loved by You and I wish to eradicate the many qualities that are unloved by You. Which then, insha’Allah, will lead me to the status and company of the Anbiya, sidiqeen, shuhadaah and the saliheen.(See Qur’an, surah An-Nisa:69). Allah please grant me the company of these righteous people as I commit myself to you. O Allah never abandon me, never leave me to my evil devices. For I know and You know better that I am a very very weak muslim. But I have to reach a resolution to end my misery. And I will not find contentment in superficial pastimes. I will not find true comfort with other human beings, as much as I love them, they will not help on the Day of Judgment. Only You Allah, Only you do we worship and Only You do we ask for help. So this is my du’aa Allah, please answer it. Allahumma innee ala dhikrika, wa shukrika, wa husni ibaaditika. O Allah, help me, aide me in remembering You, being grateful to You and the good of worshipping You. Allahumma Ameen.


Mission:
To be a muslim, mu’min and muhsin, in every sense of those statuses, insha’Allah. To be a part of the Firqatun Najiah and to go one step further to be a part of the Taiful Mansurah. Alhamdulillah and may Allah reward our scholars who made me aware of such fundamental beliefs and roles. Truly Allah will show us the path if we seek it. I have contemplated many times what can I do? I am a single person and not even a very good person of that. So that mentality has lead me to give up and not bother and get on with life as I am doing. Someone, Alhamdulillah is a muslim and prays and other basic necessities. Has a chance at Jannah, but equal if not more of entering the Fire. May Allah protect us from it! Ameen. What I have in mind and Allah knows, will take time, definitely from my part, as I have much to overcome. But we must be patient with ourselves and keep trust in Allah and never lose hope, even though shaytan will convince us that we are a lost case. First thing, we can never succeed if we have a defeatist attitude. Why should we fail if our intentions and actions are sincerely done for the sake of Allah. However if they are not, then we must reform our intentions and deeds (see Qur’an, Surah Ash-Shams:7-10).

Our aim is to please Allah. Our purpose is to worship Allah, the One who created us. Our vision is Jannah. Keep this vision in mind. Come on imagine it now. Insha’Allah. Me and my loved ones. We’re beautiful. We got Allah above us, Smiling. We the prophet(Salallahu alayhi wa sallam) to our right. We got the anbiya, the sahabas, the shuhadaa (oh yeh the long haired bros!) and Aish’a(Radi Allahu anha). I so want to meet her. She is no doubt the most interesting person I have heard of. I mean the prophet(Salallahu alayhi wa sallam)) loved her the most and died in her lap. Anyway, this is our vision. Keep it in mind when things don’t seem to go right.

Another thing we have to remember is Paradise is surrounded by hardship whilst hell is surrounded with pleasures. So if we are experiencing too much pleasure, then we need to take a step back and think hang on this is not right. Although Alhamdulillah we should not deny the blessings of Allah and we should pray for Allah to increase us in them, we should not indulge in too much pleasure, hardens the heart and make us forget Allah. So whatever difficulties we face, we must think, ok this is not too bad because I may be on my way to Jannah, as it has been described as being surrounded by hardship. Maybe this could be my opportunity to raise my status with Allah. So we need to stop looking at immediate pleasures and make our vision the akhirah, investing in it. With this attitude we can begin the journey.

Ok I am rattling on and on and whats the point? Well I have an image of an Islamic empire. A mass of people worshipping Allah correctly. I can’t completely describe it or vocalize it, but Allah knows what I see. So I will start with step one in this direction. That is to be sincere and committed to this relationship with Allah. To be truthful to ourself, only then can we set on our way to improve our life, the lives around us, and the lives of humanity. You can think we can achieve this? My dear sisters we can, with the help of Allah we can. Nothing is impossible. And even if we don’t succeed in changing others, then at least we will have tried and we will have something to say to Allah on the Day of Judgement. Guidance is only with Allah. Some prophets (Alayhim salam) will only have one follower, does that make them any less than a prophet? We are not looking at numbers, that maybe a measurement of success in the dunya, but remember its not our goal. From now on we think – Akhirah! Insha’Allah.

I need help ok. I need you to help me with this. I need your ideas, your advice, your encouragement. My fitrah has not rested a long time. My fitrah doesn’t rest till something is done. I remember my personal dispute of wearing niqaab or not. My fitrah wouldn’t rest until I had done it, Alhamdulillah. Few other things. This I believe is guidance from Allah. So sometimes we should go with the instinct of the heart as long as it is not overcome with evil.

This piece of writing is more for myself than anything else. But I just wanted you to have a bit of an idea where I was coming from. I would like it if we could do this together, to be a constant reminder for one another. I want us to be under the Shade of Allah when there is no other shade. Share a mutual love for Allah, His Messenger(Salallahu alayhi wa sallam) and Islam. You ready?!!!! Insha’Allah.

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Now this is me, with that part missing. But bi'idhnillah, i am on the quest to return her home, safe and sound with all parts in tact. Its proving more difficult than i thought, but Alhamdulillah i still have some of the resolve in me and insha'Allah it suffices me to get back on this track through the Mercy and Blessings of Allah. I hope the you will find signs of the outcome on me, then you can inform me whether i truly found her or if i ever really had her in me.......................
JazakumAllah Khayr

Friday, April 13, 2007

The Think Tank

Recently i've been thinking. Well actually i spend alot of my time thinking. Come to think of it, i think a rather lot. I often think, what are people thinking, not of me, but just in general i wonder whats going through their minds. Especially when it come to little babies and children. Sometimes they stare off into space and i think what are thinking about. But i guess we'll never know. I mean you can very well ask your family members or friends, but they can very well tell you something else instead of what they were really thinking. Or you'll get this blatant lie of an answer when you ask 'what you thinking about?' and you get the response 'nothing.' Duh thats not possible. I should know, as i often give that response. Its just easier to say. Or the other one is when you ask whats wrong and they say nothing! when clearly there is. Again i do it. Is it lie to say nothing? Well i would say it is an incomplete sentence. Nothing.......that i want to discuss right now.

See thoughts are of a very special status. Its where your intentions lie. It is the start of your will and determination. It is the secret connection between man and God. Alhamdulillah deeds are good, its out in the open, its a doing thing. But with thoughts you're entering a different realm altogether. Your thoughts are you. Nobody could ever truly completely know you. Even your nearest and dearest. EXCEPT. And yes there is an exception. Allah. The Creator of your thoughts. Back to that bond between you and your Lord (Ha, i do have a point to this). And i pray to God we all have a bond, because, by God, without it our thoughts are in utter ruins. There is absolutley no point to our existence. Imagine we go through the day with the many thoughts in our head, but not even one was related to talking to Allah or acknowledging Him. How selfish and ungrateful is that. Even if we don't voice our gratitude or thank Allah through our actions, the least we could do is give a silent thanks in our head. Truth is not a minute should go by, where we dont think about Allah, Exalted be He, deserves far more Praise. For HE knows who is thinking of Him and who is not. He knows when something was done for His sake and when something was not. I am afraid as i am writing, because HE knows this post started off with me just trying to be psycological but as i got into it, my thought process changed. He knows what you're thinking when you read this post. He knows what im thinking whilst your reading this post. Yes this is the magnificence of our Lord. SubhanAllahi wa bihamdihi, subhana rabbil azheem.

See thats why i like thinking. Its the silent exchange between me and my Lord, a territory where nobody else can go. But of course theres the dark side, that Allah also knows of but He may have Mercy on me for it, which is why i will never tell you.............

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Message To Mankind

Oh yeh and the womenfolk aswell. ......
Lets get it politically correct, a message to humanity!
Anyway, just in case anyone other then my friends read my posts (my dearest friends im relying on you to spread this), muslims and non muslims alike. I want to speak to you all as a fellow human beings. Since i live in this world with you, goodness i may even have travelled on the bus with some of you! Well then i have some degree of responsibility about the welfare of you.

I know theres alot of rubbish going on at the moment like a muslim and non muslim divide. Granted there is a difference. But contrary to what you see and hear, we don't hate you. We are not trying to kill you. We are not trying to brainwash you or convert you. We just want to be able to practise our religion. We would like to build relations, find common ground, find ways which we can improve the quality of our lives. Granted there are different ways we will go about this. We adopt the method of our beloved prophet (peace be upon him) and you follow.........See the difference is the true islamic way does work and it holds the answer for everything. Its a proven method which has impacted the lives of so many and revolutionised generations of people. Whereas the unislamic way of life leaves one still searching and yearning........This is also a proven reality.

The formula is quite a simple one really and if you believe there is a God, that theres something out there, you're halfway there. The rest is just abit of research and maybe some reading. Pick up a copy of the English Qur'an from any Islamic store near you or ask me and i'll point you in the right direction where to find a copy of the English Qur'an (or whatever language you're comfortable with). Read and you'll find out who really created you. What real muslims are really about. Moreover, find yourself in there, you will be mentioned indirectly. Hey you never know, if you truly read with an open heart, you might find yourself drawn to a few more lines, then more and before you know it you've gone through the whole book! Well what an accomplishment that would be, i mean for someone who never even reads books! Please do take the time out, as its your life we're talking about here, not something small now is it. The very important you.

So the next time you see a muslim, i mean a true walking defintion of the word, you can say i know your secret. I know why you're content and grateful. Why you're kind and modest. Why you hold yourself with grace and not afraid. Its because of your firm belief in One God isn't it and because you're trying to emulate that beautiful man Muhammad (peace be upon him). Thats it pure and simple. No additives or funny extracts. And why am i telling you this, because you deserve it. You deserve to get the best out of life. And the One who created you can only grant you that.

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Help me out here

Well my 2nd post for the night, i am making progress!! No i need some technical help. please. My blog page looks so empty how do i fill it, with different links n stuff? step by step instructions please. And while im waiting i'll just browse round and key in what i can figure out......

Well there's always a first.....

Assalaamu'alaikum

Well im here, Alhamdulillah, i made it. whoohoo! my first post. No, you dont understand, im well proud of myself. Well those of you who know me may understand. Anyway, you people who made me actually write something, making it feel like i was in demand, well you better read me, thats if and when i write. For my greatest fear was nobody would read, but hey i guess its not about the people. Its about me. Yes Self-Explanatory me......

Seriously though, insha'Allah i would like this to be of soem benefit and not in complete jest. Pray Allah guides me to what is correct and forgives me my shortcomings, for we often forget everything we do is written down. That doesn't mean stop writing, it just means think before you act.
I decided a theme along time ago, the kind of slant i want my works to take. Its going to be about going back to the basics, purifying the self, strenghtening ones relationship with their Lord. With the help of Allah and my blogster friends, i want to embark on this journey, to be freed......
Ok gotta go check my niyah
Jazakum Allah Khayr
Love ya like!

P.S whoohoo 1st post completed, mission accomplished!